Many who are truly Psychic Vampires, go their whole life in confusion from being unable to find the truth. We may have studied "Psychic Vampires" at one point, but only come across all the insults psychic vampires are given. Some may assume that they are some monster, they grieve over self pity for some time. Others may deny that they could be something so dreadful and unrealistic, that they never again research psychic vampires.
Many websites claim they know everything about a Psychic Vampire, and support that topic with a bunch of bologna. A real PsyVamp is in constant starvation for the truth. Their life is very difficult, and they feel misunderstood by everybody. A real PsyVamp often may claim they are "use" to being hurt by others, that often they shut down all emotions; leading to depression and suicide.
One the thing that bothers me the most, are the websites that "reveal" what is so great about being a Psychic Vampire. They speak of a bunch of non sense, and "powers" a PsyVamp has. Thus, interest grows in the mind of some who attempt to try these "powers". Being successful in doing so (or so the mind may be convinced), they assume they are this "PSyVamp". They are only acting in ways that are extremely damaging to their energy, they were not born to deal with such things. Their strengths lie elsewhere.
It disgusts me coming across someone begging to be "changed" into a psychic vampire. This is not Buffy The Vampire Slayer, this is real life. We are human beings. In each human being hides a gift, this gift is ours. You can't just give somebody your gift. It was meant for you, and you only. We must each learn to deal with our gifts, we can not figure out one we were not granted. Each person has their own gift, this is what makes us human.
PsyVamps may be the type of friend you need, because they know so much about you. They literally are living through your eyes while they are in your presence. It is very difficult to understand if you don't go through it. It sounds crazy even to a PsyVampire, but it makes so much sense to them, it can't be denied.
We live to be different, and soon make peace with all the negativity received from others. Even then, it is extremely difficult for us to be around others. Some are more comfortable in groups, rather then one on one. We notice every little detail about another person. We receive thoughts that usually we wouldn't. We often recognize others acting on a specific thought which had just crossed our mind.
At times while around others with a mental illness, if triggered, we act out in very immature and explosive ways. We can experience every mental issue when put in front of us, we are forced to cope in countless ways. We often get in trouble by acting in ways we would never think of, because we are acting in ways another usually would, but do not realize it until it happens.
Our gift is a difficult one. Coping with ours is very different then others, there for we are not taught how. Most just give up on us instantly from misunderstandment. Instead, psychiatrists diagnose us with a bunch of bull ****, and give us medication that only messes us up even worse. It is up to a PsyVamp to help another. Together we compare, and come up with very valuable results. Together, we are one.
So here's the deal. This website was just put up on 12/18/09. It has only been started so there are very few members. If you are interested at all in the website, and wish to be apart of it, please sign up. If you would like me to inform you when there are updates on this website, that can be arranged. Get the word out! Help me build a family.
First let me say that I am, of course, a psyvamp, and I don't have bipolar disorder. Mostly stressed teens who have been through abuse, and who may have tried to commit suicide and older adults have bipolar disorder [Ed: See Editor's Note, below.]. My mother is one of these older adults, and she's not a psychic vampyre.
Many of these teens who have bipolar disorder may also be psyvamps. Psyvamps tend to have very high emotions. One is often anger, for we also feel the drive of -- for lack a better word -- the "beast". Because of our empathy (the ability to sense emotions in another person or large group of people), our emotions and those of others within stressful situations, tend to set us on an emotional edge where we may feel overly grieved and may seem abnormally depressed to outsiders who don't know what we are feeling. We look like normal people -- how can they tell? In no way shape or form can anyone who's not sensitive to the supernatural understand what we are feeling. And sometimes, doctors would diagnose some of us as bipolar; some psyvamps may be bipolar, but much of the time it is that our empathy of others and ourselves intensifies our emotions. We may be very abnormally violent, or we may be abnormally stressed, depressed or withdrawn, or abnormally calm or quiet, where we may seem like someone who is bipolar.
Bipolar disorder, as my mom explains it, is when you have racing thoughts, stress, worry ("how am I going to pay my bills, buy food, etc.?"), and you worry yourself into a hyper-sensitive frenzy. On the flip side, you tend to get very depressed, or very violent, or you cry for days at a time, and you won't eat, etc.; you also have anxiety attacks where it feels like you're going to die, and you may even believe mentally that you're dying. With psychic vampyres, however, we have such a tight grip on the mind that bipolar disorder would not fit most of us -- some of us yes, but not all of us. Almost every teenager and young adult who's had a rough life is a troubled youth in today's society, so it's a common setting for bipolar disorder. But often, what we feel is viewed by others as a behavior disorder, and that's not true, because they don't understand what we are feeling, and there is no way we can explain without sounding more crazy.